For the past couple of years I have seen several bloggers do a post about what their word for the upcoming year would be. Words like “hope,” “balance,” or “change” were their chosen word to inspire them and, for some, to improve their lives somehow.
This year, I decided to come up with my own word and soon realized it wasn’t easy to do. One friend told me what her word was one afternoon via Facebook. Later that day, I wrote a short list of words that came to mind: Persevere. Compassion. Strength. Peace. Faith. Kindness.
Each one of these words expressed what I wanted in some way throughout 2014. Some words would play a much larger role than others but each had their own respective part. But the one word that stuck out most was confidence.
After the emotional nightmares I’ve endured and the struggles I’ve gone through in my personal life, confidence made sense. I’ve been fighting like hell to rebuild my confidence. Figure out who I am. Feel so damn good about myself that it radiated off of me for once. To finally believe I am worth something. To finally believe I am awesome and deserve nothing but the best in my life.
The word that stuck out immediately after confidence was peace. The search for and achievement of inner peace as I work on healing and personal growth while ridding myself of the toxins that have poisoned me for far too long. Toxins that have left me bitter, angry, resentful and often too cynical for my own good.
On a side note, when I Googled “my word for the year” one of the links was called My One Word. Though the site is more faith based and on “who God wants us to become,” it’s a great way of looking forward to the new year and focusing on one word instead of a long list of resolutions. This is how they describe the challenge:
The “My One Word” challenge is simple: lose the long the list of changes you want to make this year and instead pick one word. This process forces clarity by taking all of your big plans for life change and narrowing them down into a single thing. Your one word focuses on your character and creates a vision for your future.
Simple. To the point. Honest. And my vision for my future is achieving a level of confidence that I have not seen in years, maybe ever.
I’m determined to be confident in all areas of my life throughout 2014. To stop questioning and doubting my skills, talents, knowledge and capabilities. I’ve been doing it for so long that it’s become almost impossible to believe I am an intelligent woman who is damn good at a few things. My husband and friends say it, but I often question them and wonder if they’re lying just to make me feel better. Now, I intend to focus on believing them.
This upcoming year is already featuring many new challenges for me, ones that will probably push me to my limits and way out of my comfort zone. But now, with the confidence I am slowly rebuilding, I can say I am ready for whatever 2014 brings me. Failure is not an option. Allowing myself to be mistreated is not an option. I’m moving forward and I am determined to make 2014 the best year I’ve had in many years.
Here’s a to an awesome new year!